Tuesday, March 12, 2013
It's not the destination, it's the journey. Or something.
Which means, I'm heading out on a road trip.
It's not the 20+ hours by myself (each way) that have me worried,or the event I'm headed there for, or the hotel or the driving around unfamiliar cities.
It's the 20+ hours by myself AND the event I'm headed there for AND the hotel AND the driving around unfamiliar cities.
I'm freaking out, yo.
I've always prided myself on my adventurous streak. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at least a little bit excited about cruising through the southwest, naught but hundreds of miles of open road before me and the voices in my head for company.
But I'm going to be spending a substantial portion of the next five or six days all alone. Hoping my three-and-a-half-out-of-four-stars hotel is as decent as its reputation. Driving from one event to the next, looking for familiar people that all had the good sense to fly to Dallas and rent cars and stay together in the houses of family and friends.
Because, with more than 700 participants heading east for the American Choir Directors Association Conference, we were all on our own to figure out housing and transportation. And after a year in this choir, I've still yet to become so much as Facebook friends with anyone.
Which means, I'm on my own.
My therapist tried to get out of seeing me this week since he knew I'd be leaving, but I managed to force him into making an appointment for tomorrow morning. I'm going to need it. Because the anxiety I'm feeling right now? Let's just say a hummingbird's wings don't beat as fast as my heart is at the moment. It's about to pop right out of my chest and dance on the table.
I'm leaving tomorrow. Just as soon as I put new tires on my car and get the oil changed.
I've got a fully charged iPod, and have managed to hang onto that unlimited data plan that will give me access to all the Pandora I can handle whenever I'm in the vicinity of a cell signal. I'll have snacks and water and have already googled all the best rest stops.
But I'm still a little bit terrified.
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