Tuesday, March 12, 2013

It's not the destination, it's the journey. Or something.

My choir is going on tour this weekend.

Which means, I'm heading out on a road trip.

To Dallas.

By car.

From California.

Alone.



It's not the 20+ hours by myself (each way) that have me worried,or the event I'm headed there for, or the hotel or the driving around unfamiliar cities.

It's the 20+ hours by myself AND the event I'm headed there for AND the hotel AND the driving around unfamiliar cities.

I'm freaking out, yo.

I've always prided myself on my adventurous streak. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at least a little bit excited about cruising through the southwest, naught but hundreds of miles of open road before me and the voices in my head for company.

But I'm going to be spending a substantial portion of the next five or six days all alone. Hoping my three-and-a-half-out-of-four-stars hotel is as decent as its reputation. Driving from one event to the next, looking for familiar people that all had the good sense to fly to Dallas and rent cars and stay together in the houses of family and friends.

Because, with more than 700 participants heading east for the American Choir Directors Association Conference, we were all on our own to figure out housing and transportation. And after a year in this choir, I've still yet to become so much as Facebook friends with anyone.

Which means, I'm on my own.

My therapist tried to get out of seeing me this week since he knew I'd be leaving, but I managed to force him into making an appointment for tomorrow morning. I'm going to need it. Because the anxiety I'm feeling right now? Let's just say a hummingbird's wings don't beat as fast as my heart is at the moment. It's about to pop right out of my chest and dance on the table.

I'm leaving tomorrow. Just as soon as I put new tires on my car and get the oil changed.

I've got a fully charged iPod, and have managed to hang onto that unlimited data plan that will give me access to all the Pandora I can handle whenever I'm in the vicinity of a cell signal. I'll have snacks and water and have already googled all the best rest stops.

I'm set.

But I'm still a little bit terrified.

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8 comments:

  1. You can do it! Check in with us now and then. We'll keep you going.

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  2. That is quite the trip to be making by yourself. When I was interviewing for residency, I flew all over the country by myself. And it should have been a grand adventure, but really, I hated it and just wanted a travel companion. But also, I didn't have Pandora then, so this has got to be way better.

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  3. Drive safely! I LOVE road trips! You should download some books on tape! The Jim Dale narrated Harry Potter series on tape is SPECTACULAR and made a 14 hour drive fly by!

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  4. I love solo road trips. I've done several...It takes 24 hours from Miami to Wooster, so breaking it up will make it go ok. Here's an idea from the nerd in me.... I have a voice recorder so sometimes I would start talking to myself and tell stories...and then I would have them recorded. Have I done anything with them in the last 5 years? No. Have I ever sat down to listen to my rambles from my road trip? Nope. But it helped me keep my sanity, which sounds a little crazy.... OHHH and, always talk to someone whenever you get off the highway, something as simple as "How is your day going?" Even if it's to the gas station dude (yes, this means go in and grab a snack...or drink.. just don't go in just to say hi... that might come across as creepy.) Have a safe and wonderful trip. I can't wait to see pictures (Yep, stop and take a picture on the drive now and then...) and hear about your solo trip half way across the country!

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  5. I love road trips by myself. I used to drive from Massachusetts to Illinois for school and it was awesome. I want to drive across the country soon.

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  6. Am I missing why you aren't going out with one of your tour people?

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  7. You are awesome. I have to hand it to you--it takes a certain type of fearless gal with a whole lot of chutzpah to do something like this... and you have it in spades. Of course you'll be nervous, but the fact that you're doing this at all is just a testament to how incredibly awesome you are :)

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  8. I love driving by myself. Singing super loud and NOT listening to Wheels on the Bus. But the longest I go is three hours to my college town. I'd probably be freaked out for that long too. I'm glad you survived! Or are you still there?

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